Saturday, December 15, 2007

three days to go until...


Hi, everybody! I hope you are all having a good weekend, and finding the rest and relaxation that you deserve.

I find myself feeling more and more nervous, understandably, as I get closer to my back surgery. My operation in on this coming Wednesday, so I have three days left of whatever my life is now. I can't yet know what the days, weeks, months will be like immediately following my surgery, but I certainly think a little bit farther into the future...

I can't wait to finally feel better. I can't even imagine what it will be like to live without constant pain nagging at my consciousness. To walk without feeling like I need to find a seat. To do chores around the house without groaning from the growing burning in my back. Wow - that would be amazing.

And yet, even with the hope, I am really pretty scared about the whole thing. I keep doubting myself: maybe my pain is not SO bad, and maybe I can just live with it. But, I know that's the fear talking. I have fought so long and hard to feel better, and maybe, just maybe, the turning point has come.

So, I hope to post over the coming days (God knows I am going to need it), and then I will be sure to post as soon as possible, after the operation, to update you all on how I am feeling. I had a dream the other night that I woke up, right after the operation, as the anesthesia was fading, and I could already feel better.

Maybe it is prophetic?

Have you ever had a dream actually come true?

6 comments:

Nap Warden said...

I'm trying to think if I've had an actual dream come true....Good luck with your operation. I have had friends who have had back surgery and were very glad they did...Stay strong.

Sarene said...

First off, love the Operation graphic. That used to be one of my favorite games...but I would always lose the pieces in the carpet.

Second, good luck with everything. I know you're going to be every bit the trooper you have been all the years I've known you.

Third, yes, I have had dreams come true, so there is no reason why yours shouldn't ;-)

Sandy Kessler said...

Yes
I have had such dreams and it will be for you - many mnay blessings

ZILLA said...

More than once, I've had a dream come true.

Good luck, Marci. I have a feeling you're going to be so relieved that you chose to do this.

BipolarLawyerCook said...

You will feel great, I am sure of it. If you haven't checked it out, there is a blog called In Palinode's Palace. He recently had back surgery and it has made all the difference in the world for him. It's been a true miracle for him.

Phyllis Sommer said...

i'm thinking of you and praying for your refuah shleimah.